Brought forth in the 1600's by a humble shoemaker;
translated into English over 100 years later; suppressed and hidden away until
recently in theological archives around the world... a worthy personal study
not just for academics but for all those who are
spiritually grounded in the WORD, who are learning to hear
the Lord, and who hunger for more.
THE
AUTHOR'S PREFACE TO THE READER .
Dear Reader,
If thou wilt use these Words aright, and art in good Earnest, thou shalt
certainly find the Benefit
thereof. But I desire thou mayest be warned, if thou art not in Earnest,
not to meddle with the dear
Names of God, in and by which the most High Holiness is invoked, moved,
and powerfully desired,
lest they kindle the Anger of God in thy Soul. For we must not abuse the
Holy Names of God. This
little Book is only for those that would fain repent, and are in a Desire
to begin. Such will find what
Manner of Words therein, and whence they are born. Be you herewith
commended to the Eternal
Goodness and Mercy of God.
OF
TRUE REPENTANCE
1. When Man will enter upon Repentance, and with his Prayers turn
to God, he should, before he beginneth to pray, seriously
consider the State of his own Soul. How it is wholly and altogether turned
away from God, become faithless to Him, and
only bent upon this temporary, frail, and earthly Life; bearing no sincere
Love towards God and its Neighbor, but wholly
lusting and walking contrary to the Commandments of God, and seeking
itself only, in the temporal and transitory Lusts of
the Flesh.
2. In the next Place, he should consider that all this is an utter
Enmity against God, which Satan hath raised and wrought in
him, by his Deceit in our first Parents; for which Abomination's Sake we
must suffer Death, and undergo Corruption with
our Bodies.
3. He should consider the three horrible Chains wherewith our Souls
are fast bound during the Time of this earthly Life. -
The First is the severe Anger of God, the Abyss, and dark World, which is
the Center, Root, or constituent Principle of the
Soul's Life. The Second is the Desire of the Devil against the Soul,
whereby he continually sifteth and tempteth it, and
without Intermission striveth to throw it from the Truth of God into his
own evil Nature and Element, viz. into Pride,
Covetousness, Envy, and Anger; and with his Desire, bloweth up and
kindleth those evil Properties in the Soul, whereby its
Will turneth away from God, and entereth into SELF. The Third and most
hurtful Chain of all, wherewith the poor Soul is
tied, is the corrupt and altogether vain, earthly, and mortal Flesh and
Blood, full of evil Desires and Inclinations. Here he
must consider that he lies close Prisoner with Soul and Body in the Mire
of Sins, in the Anger of God, in the Jaws of Hell;
that the Anger of God burneth in him in Soul and Body, and that he is that
very loathsome Keeper of Swine, who hath spent
and consumed his Father's Inheritance, namely, the precious Love and Mercy
of God, with the fatted Swine of the Devil in
earthly Pleasures, and hath not kept the dear Covenant and Atonement of
the innocent Death and Passion of Jesus Christ;
which Covenant God of mere Grace hath given or put into our Humanity, and
reconciled us in Him. He must also consider
that he hath totally forgotten the Covenant of Holy Baptism, in which he
had promised to be faithful and true to his Saviour,
and so wholly defiled and obscured his Righteousness with Sin, (which
Righteousness, God had freely bestowed upon him
in Christ), that he now stands before the Face of God, with the fair
Garment of Christ's Innocency which he hath defiled, as a
dirty, ragged, and patched Keeper of Swine, that hath continually eaten
the Husks of Vanity with the Devil's Swine, and is not
worthy to be called a Son of the Father, and Member of Christ.
4. He should earnestly consider that wrathful Death awaiteth him
every Hour and Moment, and will lay hold on him in his
Sins, in his Garment of a Swine-Herd, and throw him into the Pit of Hell
as a forsworn Person and Breaker of Faith, who
ought to be reserved in the dark Dungeon of Death to the Judgement of God.
5. He should consider the earnest and severe Day of God's Final
Judgement, when he shall be presented living with his
Abominations before God's Tribunal. That all those whom he hath here
offended or injured by Words and Works, and
caused to do Evil, (so that by his Instigation or Compulsion they also
have committed Evil), shall come in against him,
cursing him before the Eyes of Christ and of all Holy Angels and Men. That
there he shall stand in great Shame and
Ignominy, and also in great Terror and Desperation, and that it shall
forever grieve him to reflect that he hath fooled away
so glorious and eternal a State of Salvation and Happiness, for the
Pleasure of so short a Time; and that he had not taken care
in that short Time to secure to himself a Share in the Communion of the
Saints, and so to have enjoyed with them Eternal
Light, and Divine Glory.
6. He must consider that the ungodly Man has lost his Noble Image -
God having created him in and for His Image or
creaturely Representation - and has gotten instead thereof a deformed or
monstrous Shape, like a hellish Worm or ugly
Beast. Wherein he is an enemy to God, to Heaven, and to all Holy Angels
and Men, and that his Communion is, and will be
forever, with the Devils and hellish Worms in horrible Darkness.
7. He must earnestly consider the eternal Punishment and Torture of
the Damned; how that in eternal Horror they shall
suffer Torments in their Abominations which they had committed here, and
may never see the Land of the Saints to all
Eternity, nor get any Ease or Refreshment, as appears by the Example of
the Beggar and the rich Man.
All this a Man must earnestly and seriously consider, and remember also
that God had originally created him in such a fair
and glorious Image, even in His own Likeness, in which He, Himself, would
dwell. That He created him out of His
Goodness, for Man's own eternal Bliss and Glory, to the End that he might
dwell with the Holy Angels and Children of
God in great Happiness, Power, and Glory; in the Eternal Light; in the
praiseful and melodious Harmony of the Angelical
and Divine Kingdom of Joy. Where he should rejoice continually with the
Children of God, without Fear of any End. Where
no evil Thoughts could touch him, neither Care nor Trouble, neither Heat
nor Cold. Where no Night is known; where there
is no Day or limited Time any more, but an everlasting Blessedness,
wherein Soul and Body tremble for Joy. And where
he, himself, should rejoice at the infinite Wonders and Virtues appearing
in the Brightness of Colors, and the Variety of
Splendor opened and displayed by the Omnipotent Powers and Glories of God,
upon the new crystalline Earth, which shall
be as Transparent Glass. And that he doth so willfully lose all this
Eternal Glory and Happiness for the Sake of so short and
poor a Time, which even in this State of Vanity and Corruption, in the
evil Life of the voluptuous Flesh, is full of Misery,
Fear, and utter Vexation; and wherein it goeth with the Wicked as with the
Righteous, as the one must die, so must the other;
only the Death of the Saints is an Entrance into the Eternal Rest, while
the Death of the Wicked is an Introduction into the
eternal Anguish.
8. He must consider the Course of this World, that all Things in it
are but a Play, wherewith he spends his Time in such
Unquietness; and that it goes with the Rich and Mighty as with the Poor
and the Beggar. That all of us equally live and
move in the four Elements; and that the hard-earned Morsel of the Poor is
as relishing and savoury to him in his Labour, as
the Dainties of the Rich are to him in his Cares. Also, that all of us
subsist by one Breath, and that the rich Man hath nothing
but the Pleasures of the Palate and the Lust of the Eye, for a little
while more than his poor Neighbor, for the End of both is
the Same. Yet for this short-lived Lust's Sake, many foolishly forego so
inconceivable a Happiness, and bring themselves
into such extreme and eternal Misery.
In the deep Consideration of these weighty Truths, Man shall come to feel
in his Heart and Mind, especially if he at the same
Time represents and sets before his own Eyes his own End, a hearty Sighing
and Longing after the Mercy of God, and will
begin to bewail his committed Sins; and to be sorry he has spent his Days
so ill, and not observed or considered that he
stands in this World as in a Field, in the growing to be a Fruit either in
the Love or in the Anger of God. He will then first
begin to find in himself that he has not yet labored at all in the
Vineyard of Christ, but that he is a dry fruitless Branch of the
Vine.
And thus in many a one, whom the Spirit of Christ touches in such a
Consideration, there arises abundant Sorrow, Grief of
Heart, and inward Lamentation over the Days of his Wickedness which he
hath spent in Vanity, without any Working in the
Vineyard of Christ.
Such a Man, whom the Spirit of Christ thus brings into Sorrow and
Repentance, so that his Heart is opened both to know
and bewail his Sins, is very easily to be helped. He needs but to draw to
himself the Promise of Christ, viz. That God willeth
not the Death of a Sinner but that He wisheth them all to come unto Him,
and He will refresh them; and, that there is great
joy in Heaven for one Sinner that repenteth. Let such a one but lay hold
on the Words of Christ and wrap himself up into His
meritorious Passion and Death.
But I will now speak to those who feel indeed in themselves a Desire to
repent, and yet cannot come to acknowledge and
bewail their committed Sins. The Flesh saying continually to the Soul,
Stay a while, it is well enough; or it is Time enough
tomorrow; and when tomorrow is come, then the Flesh says again, Tomorrow;
the Soul in the meanwhile, fighting and
fainting, conceiveth neither any true Sorrow for the Sins it hath
committed nor any Comfort. Unto such a one, I say, I will
write a Process or WAY, which I myself have gone, that he may know what he
must do, and how it went with me, if
peradventure he be inclined to enter into and pursue the same; and then he
will come to understand what he shall find here
afterwards written.
THE
PROCESS OF REPENTANCE; OR WAY TO CONVERSION
When any Man findeth in himself by the former or any other Considerations,
pressed Home upon his Mind and Conscience,
a Hunger or Desire to repent, and yet feeleth no true Sorrow in himself
for his Sins which he hath committed, but only a
Hunger or Desire of such Sorrow, so that the poor captive Soul continually
sighs, fears, and must needs acknowledge itself
guilty of Sins before the Judgement of God. Such a one, I say, can take no
better Course than this, namely, to wrap up his
Senses, Mind, and Reason together, and make to himself instantly, as soon
as ever he perceiveth in himself the Desire to
repent, a mighty strong Purpose and Resolution that he will that very
Hour, nay, that very Minute, immediately enter into
Repentance, and go forth from his wicked Way, and not at all regard the
Power and Respect of the World. Yea, and if it
should be required, would forsake and disesteem all Things for true
Repentance Sake; and never depart from that Resolution
again, though he should be made the Fool and Scorn of all the World for
it.
But that with the full Bent and Strength of his Mind, he will go forth
from the Beauty and Pleasure of the World, and patiently
enter into the Passion and Death of Christ in and under the Cross, and set
all his Hope and Confidence upon the Life to
come. That even now in Righteousness and Truth he will enter into the
Vineyard of Christ, and do the Will of God. That in
the Spirit and Will of Christ he will begin and finish all his Actions in
this World, and for the Sake of Christ's Word and
Promise, which holds forth to us a Heavenly Reward, willingly take up and
bear every Adversity and Cross so that he may
be but admitted into the Communion or Fellowship of the Children of Christ
and in the Blood of the Lamb, Jesus Christ, be
incorporated and united unto His Humanity.
He must firmly imagine to himself, and wholly wrap up his Soul in this
Persuasion, that in his Purpose he shall obtain the
Love of God in Christ Jesus, and that God will give unto him according to
His faithful promise, that Noble Pledge, the Holy
Ghost, for an Earnest; that, in the Humanity of Christ, as to the Heavenly
Substance, he shall be born again in himself, and
that the Spirit of Christ will renew his Mind with His Love and Power, and
strengthen his weak Faith. Also that in his
Divine Hunger he shall get the Flesh and Blood of Christ for Food and
Drink, in the Desire of his Soul, which hungereth
and thirsteth after It as its proper Nutriment; and with the Thirst of the
Soul drink the Water of Eternal Life out of the Sweet
Fountain of Jesus Christ, as Christ's most true and steadfast Promise is.
He must also wholly and firmly imagine to himself, and set before him, the
great Love of God. That God willeth not the
Death of a Sinner, but that he repent and believe; that Christ calleth
poor Sinners very kindly and graciously to Himself, and
will refresh them; that God hath sent His Son into the World, to seek and
save that which is lost, viz. the poor repentant and
returning Sinner; and that for the poor Sinner's Sake He hath given His
Life unto Death, and died for him in our Humanity
which He took upon Him.
Furthermore, he must firmly persuade himself that God in Christ Jesus will
much more readily hear him and receive him to
Grace, than he will readily come; and that God in the Love of Christ, in
the most dear and precious Name JESUS, cannot will
any Evil. That there is no angry Countenance at all in this Name, but that
It is the highest and deepest Love and Faithfulness,
the greatest Sweetness of the Deity, in the great Name JEHOVAH, which He
has manifested in our Humanity, corrupted as
it is, and perished as to the Heavenly Part, which in Paradise disappeared
through Sin. And He was therefore moved in His
Heart to flow into us with His Sweet Love, that the Anger of His Father,
which was kindled in us, might be quenched and
turned into Love by It. All which was done for the poor Sinner's Sake,
that he might obtain an open Gate of Grace again.
In this Consideration he must firmly imagine to himself that this very
Hour and Instant he standeth before the Face of the
Holy Trinity, and that God is really present within and without him, as
the Holy Scripture witnesseth, saying, Am not I He
that filleth all Things? And in another Place, The Word is near thee, in
thy Mouth, and in thy Heart. Also, We will come
unto you and make Our abode with you. And, Behold, I am with you always,
even to the End of the World. And again, The
Kingdom of God is within you.
Thus he must firmly know and believe, that with, and in his Interior he
standeth really before the Face of Jesus Christ, even
before the Holy Deity, on whom his Soul hath turned its Back; and must
resolve that he will this very Hour turn the Eyes and
Desire of his Soul towards God again, and with the poor, lost, and
returning Son, come to the Father. He must, with the
Eyes of his Mind cast down in Fear and deepest Humility, begin to confess
his Sins and Unworthiness before the Face of
God in manner following:
A
SHORT FORM OF CONFESSION BEFORE THE FACE OF GOD
Everyone, as his Case and Necessity requires, may order and enlarge this
Confession as the Holy Ghost
shall teach him. I will only set down a short Direction.
O Thou great unsearchable GOD, LORD of all Things; Thou, Who in Christ
Jesus, of great Love towards us, hath manifested
Thyself with Thy holy Substance in our Humanity: I, poor unworthy sinful
Wretch, come before Thy Presence, which Thou
hast manifested in the Humanity of Jesus Christ, though I am not worthy to
lift up mine Eyes to Thee, acknowledging and
confessing before Thee, that I am guilty of Unfaithfulness, and Breaking
off from Thy great Love and Grace, which Thou
hast freely bestowed upon us. I have left the Covenant, which of mere
Grace Thou hast made with me in Baptism, in which
Thou didst receive me to be a Child and Heir of Eternal Life, and I have
brought my Desire into the Vanity of this World,
and defiled by Soul therewith, and made it altogether beastial and
earthly. So that my Soul knoweth not itself, because of the
Mire of Sin; but accounteth itself a strange Child before Thy Face, not
worthy to desire Thy Grace. I lie in the Guilt and
Filth of Sin, and the Vanity of my corrupt Flesh, up to the very Lips of
my Soul, and have but a small Spark of the living
Breath left in me, which desireth Thy Grace. I am dead in Sin and
Corruption, so that in this woeful Condition I dare not lift
up mine Eyes to Thee.
O God in Christ Jesus, Thou who for poor Sinners' Sakes didst become Man
to help them, to Thee I complain; to Thee I
have yet a Spark of Refuge in my Soul. I have not regarded Thy purchased
Inheritance, which Thou hast purchased for us
poor Men, by Thy bitter Death, but have made myself a Partaker of the
Heritage of Vanity, in the Anger of my Father in the
Curse of the Earth, and am ensnared in Sin, and half dead as to Thy
Kingdom. I lie in Feebleness as to Thy Strength, and the
wrathful Death waiteth for me. The Devil hath poisoned me, so that I know
not my Saviour: I am become a wild Branch on
Thy Tree, and have consumed mine Inheritance which is in Thee, with the
Devil's Swine. What shall I say before Thee, who
am not worthy of Thy Grace? I lie in the Sleep of Death which hath
captivated me, and am fast Bound with three strong
Chains. O Thou Breaker-through-Death, assist me, I beseech Thee; I cannot,
I am able to do nothing! I am dead in myself,
and have no Strength before Thee, neither dare I, for great Shame, lift up
mine Eyes unto Thee. For I am the defiled Keeper
of Swine, and have spent mine Inheritance with the false adulterous Whore
of Vanity in the Lusts of the Flesh; I have sought
myself in my own Lust, and not Thee. Now in myself I am become a Fool; I
am naked and bare; my Shame stands before
mine Eyes; I cannot hide it; Thy Judgement waiteth for me. What shall I
say before Thee, Who art the Judge of all the
World? I have nothing to bring before Thee. - Here I stand naked and bare
in Thy Presence, and fall down before Thy Face
bewailing my Misery, and fly to Thy great Mercy, though I am not worthy of
It; yet receive me but in Thy Death, and let me
but die from my Death in Thine. Cast me down, I pray Thee, to the Ground
in my innate SELF, and kill this SELF of mine
through Thy Death, that I may live no more to mySELF, seeing I in mySELF
work nothing but Sin. Therefore, I pray Thee,
cast down to the Ground this wicked Beast, which is full of false Deceit
and SELF-Desire, and deliver this poor Soul of
mine from its heavy Bonds.
O merciful God, it is owing to Thy Love and Long-Suffering that I lie not
already in Hell. I yield my SELF, with my whole
Will, Senses and Mind, unto Thy Grace, and fly to Thy Mercy. I call upon
Thee through Thy Death, from that small Spark
of Life in me encompassed with Death and Hell, which open their Throat
against me, and would wholly swallow me up in
Death; upon Thee I call, Who hast promised that Thou wilt not quench the
smoking Flax. I have no other Way to Thee but
by Thy Own bitter Death and Passion, because Thou hast made our Death to
be Life by Thy Humanity, and broken the
Chains of Death, and therefore I sink the Desire of my Soul down into Thy
Death, into the Gate of Thy Death, which Thou
hast broke open.
O Thou great Fountain of the Love of God, I beseech Thee, help me, that I
may die from my Vanity and Sin in the Death of
my Redeemer, Jesus Christ.
O Thou Breath of the great Love of God, quicken, I beseech Thee, my weak
Breath in me, that it may begin to hunger and
thirst after Thee. O Lord Jesus, Thou sweet Strength, I beseech Thee give
my Soul to drink of Thy Fountain of Grace, Thy
sweet Water of Eternal Life, that it may awake from Death and thirst after
Thee. O how extreme fainting I am for Want of
Thy Strength! O merciful God, do Thou turn me, I beseech Thee; I cannot
turn myself. O Thou Vanquisher of Death, help